In my one type of Strange Classroom I grow weary of this word,
resentment. It is said, and it most likely true, that the number one
offender causing a recovering alcoholic/Drug Addict to relapse is
holding on to resentment. The spiritual/religious people are much the
same, love everyone etc. Why I grow weary of this is that I get told
that I hold resentments therefore I go drinking every so often.
As I am there to learn even though I disagree with the person, who
usually knows me not at all, I thought I had better double check. My
thoughts till now are you cannot resent a person that means nothing to
you and the past is but an interesting history to write about in my
Chronicles of the Mexican Horse Thief. In order to see if one DOES carry
resentment it is a good idea to find out exactly what resentment
consists of; looking up the word is the best place to start.
Resentment plural:
resentments 1. bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly.
synonyms: bitterness, indignation, irritation, pique, displeasure,
dissatisfaction, disgruntlement, discontentment, discontent, , bad
feelings, hard feelings, ill feelings, rancour, animosity, hostility,
jaundice, antagonism, enmity, hatred, hate; envy, jealousy, malice, ill
will, grudge, grievance.
Reading the synonyms I know every living person has had resentments, often! I also believe it is necessary to have
some
of these towards certain people, places and things, and equally as
important to not have a few towards anything. Looking back at the
original definition perhaps the word bitter is the key? If any of the
synonyms are combined with bitter one has a problem. Bitter relates to
bile and bile makes one sick, so best do something about the bitter
then. The word that links up with bitter/bile is jaundice as anyone that
has had that sickness will know. Same with rancor, envy and jealousy.
In order to get rid of these one has to look at the situation, see it
for what it really is and adopt an intellectual view of the thing
causing the resentment. That will get rid of the bitterness, as
bitterness, rancor, envy and jealousy are more emotional than
intellectual. Last word in this group, malice. With out the bitterness
it is impossible to act with malice. The rest? Indignation, irritation,
pique, displeasure, dissatisfaction, disgruntlement, discontentment,
discontent, bad feelings, hard feelings, ill feelings, animosity,
hostility, antagonism, enmity, hatred, hate, ill will, grudge,
grievance. I have them all and no matter which Strange Classroom tells
me this is bad/evil and will do me no good; I shall always have some of
them for some people and ALL of them for others.
If you think you are better than I, go hug a pedophile, a rapist, an ANC president or any of his cadres, and be damned.
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THE MEXICAN HORSE THIEF
Here is a story of developing and breaking an addiction, while dealing with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome at the same time.
THE CHRONICLES OF THE MEXICAN HORSE THIEF II
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I must be honest, with myself, I do not think I have much humility,
more likely I fall under, “An arrogant SOB.” This needs to be addressed.
In order to do this it is very important to differentiate between
Humility and Humiliation.
